Today is the 3rd February 2010 .

Seriously, like whatever i did is wrong and nothing is right i suppose ?

I went for Advance Financial Accounting tutorial today . First thing i got, last week's test paper . I scored 84/100 . Just when i thought it was a good sign, i was wrong . So wrong i should never be happy even at the slightest bit when i saw the marks . My tutor said this test is easy, and that anyone who scored below 90 is LOUSY . Poke number one .

Class started, i couldn't really concentrate, basically just copying down the answers and acting like i'm really into the tutorial . Until this one time, when he took a long pause between questions, he asked if i was working after school . I said yes, i'm working at 6pm . He replied the class will end late at 5.30pm and that i'll have to stay back, i shook my head and said i can't . He then asked me, 'money more important or studies more important', i replied money . Without money, there's literally nothing you can do, so let alone studying .

And he told me i don't have to be in the class, i could just go around orchard parade hotel and sit there waiting to marry a rich guy . For your information, Mr. Tutor, there really are ladies sitting out and around Orchard Parade Hotel, wanna know who ? Vietnamese prostitutes . So here you are telling me to go be a prostitute ? Poke number two .

For one moment, i had to urge to pack and go, i was pissed . And he continued to say i always attend class with tutorials undone . If he hadn't taught me before, he would have kicked me out of the class . You tryna make it clear that i'm the only bad apple in the class yeah ? Poke number three .

Seriously . . . GO ON ! !

I don't give a damn shit about you kicking me outta class, i already gave you enough FACE by attending almost every tutorial . Your tutorial was the ONLY tutorial that i ever once attempt to finish the questions, even though it was just once, i did . I didn't even look at the questions for other module's tutorial .

Go fuck yourself .

Not working part time, i got shoot at home for not working and was increasing expenses . Work TWO jobs and studying ? Tutor in school shoot me . Wow . Thanks people, i really need that .

I'm gonna adapt myself to living my own life, no one else should directly affect me, not even my family .

A lot of people commented that i got skinnier, way more skinner than they first met me - both my parents, my sister and her husband, 4 working colleagues and some others . I knew it myself, but i don't give a damn, because i live my life, and you live yours . I just don't have to appetite to eat anymore .

I eat to live so when i live i can do the thing i wanna do, that totally excludes studying and working .